this is a post for my friend

Something ended for her tonight..something that i find unfair and saddening for her.This would be my point of view to the guy who started it all with her..and ended it all with her as well.It's not me in the words..I'm just the one writing what she might be feeling.

" I could still remember the time when you first told me the three words..It's fresh in my memory.It was at night..we met half way from our rooms. We just looked at each other.I saw the sparkle in your eyes, the faint blush on your face, lips that quiver and could not find the right words to say. You mumbled it out, I couldn't hear it..but i know exactly what you said to me..I said yes..I thought it was a new beginning.I thought I would be appreciated more than anything else.I thought i see it in your eyes as they sparkle with delight, no matter how small they were. I thought I found it.

We spend our nights talking on the phone.We texted and we would not end till late at night. I felt we had something going on. For the first time, I felt real happy. I can't wait to see you in classes.You would sit next to me. We would steal glances at each other sometimes. I know you aren't the expressive type..but I know you want to try something new..things couples do.I told you to be patient and take things slow.Those were the happiest days of my life.

Holidays came. You met my parents. You stayed over. You met my sister. It seems so right. I wish you don't have to go back. That you can stay a bit longer so that I can see you. I bet you were wishing the same thing too.Two months came and gone. I did not feel anything wrong between us.We still talked like normal.WE cared for each other. I thought the world should know what connection we have.

BUT

it seems you don't wan things to go that way.You were avoiding me. YOU were holding yourself back.YOU wish not to see me. Although sitting next to you, I don't feel like you're even near me. Where are you?You would not even talk to me. My friends somehow felt more important than I am. I don't want to pick up your calls is because I don't want to hurt you at the moment of frustration and hurt.I know I will say something wrong and that's not the way it should go.I thought about it. We both are at fault. We should work this out.

I tried talking to you.I tried to make a date. YOU...

You said you're not ready..stressed out..and then..you said..we should..take time off..

My heart sank.So that's what you want now?After just a couple of high flying moments, I'm nothing to you now. Why would you now work it out with me? I could have changed, we could have seen a brighter future..why drop out when it got tough?

But what done is done..We have agreed to go our separate ways..Those things we had, it will be memories..and lessons from now on..

I'm sorry..

Goodbye.."

To a friend

To my friends

Don't cry after you lose it.Don't tell me you regret after you lose it.Some things come one time.Either you keep it or you lose it forever. Cherish the things you have now..IT won't come twice..